Is being a mother worth it?

 

Is being a mother worth it?……….despite knowing the answer for sure is yes….there are days I really think that fish would have been easier……and it’s not on the days when there’s more to do than hours in the day…..and it’s not on a day where the laundry has piled high….despite my new laundry regimen (read about that in an earlier post)…..and it is not on a day when I just received two packets from school for my Katie and Andrew….. stating that Science fair projects are due on March 27th!….ugh how I despise the Science fair project….managing that project into the millions of other responsibilities that are piled high on the plate of the Mama…it is just too much to add into the day…

…..And I am not wishing for fish instead of my children on days when they are fighting like a litter of puppies (I like that analogy V!….so thank you)…..and I am trying to figure out who started it….who should apologize….should there be a consequence?????…or should I just completely ignore the arguement….and walk away….

No the days I wish for fish…..are the days when I can not fix the problem…when the problem is an emotional one that has to be worked out all on its on by my oldest son’s broken heart…..the days when the emotional pain can be felt by the mama….even though it is not my pain….it’s his….but I feel it…..so I wish I had fish on those days…..because I would not feel the emotional connection to a fish….ya know like I would to a dog or a cat….because even animals can cause you to feel their sadness and pain….but not so much for me and the fish!

So over these past few months as I try to NOT interfere too much in the troubles of teenage life…..and as I try to be comforting…but not too comforting as to be annoying….and as I try to keep him busy so that his mind is occupied…..and as I try to show that I care…without being an over-bearing and annoying mother…..it is on days like this that I wish for fish…only because the burden of being a mama is so heavy on the heart during these moments….and to me it seems to be the moments when my child’s pain is emotional…a pain that I for sure can not fix……that’s when it hurts the most.

I know for sure from my four amazing children that being a mother is worth all of the pain that sometimes is attached to mother-hood….but sometimes….when the burden is too much for me to bear…because of the sadness I can not fix….it is during these moments that …..I wish for fish…….

And a special thanks to my friend V…..for sharing and understanding the need for fish sometimes….xoxo

About Kim

My name is Kim Marino and I have been practicing as a licensed speech and language pathologist since 1993. I work on Long Island providing diagnostic evaluations and services to children from birth to age 21. My experience is vast and am proud to say that I work with children that may present with articulation and phonological concerns, oral motor feeding concerns, Down Syndrome feeding, cognitive rehabilitation, auditory processing delays, receptive language delays, cleft palate feeding and sound development and expressive language delays. Most importantly, I am the mother of four amazing children and am happily married to my childhood sweetheart. I feel blessed to have my four children and so lucky to share this journey in life with my husband. I always had it somewhere in my head that I wanted to develop a blog or a website of some sort so that I could provide families with an additional resource....so that parents could help their little ones become a better communicator. And as I was developing this blog....I realized that I also needed to share the stories about my life and my children....and the funny things along the way that help to keep me smiling. Whether you are a working mother or not...finding balance between home, children and life can be a challenge....I hope that my blog helps to bring a smile to your face..and also some tools to help you help your little or big one. I hope you enjoy! Kim
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